My Poor Abandoned Blog

My poor abandoned blog.  I came back to you!  I'm sorry, but for those of you who thought maybe I had simply lost interest and like many other projects that I have started and failed to finish this blog was destined to gather dust in some unseen corner of the ether net, let me explain.

I started this blog as a kind of personal catharsis.  My goal was not to write to please others, but to please myself.  I wanted to say what I felt needed to be said, even if I wasn't sure if anybody wanted to hear it. But then I found  that I had a bunch of things that I felt like saying but I was pretty sure I shouldn't say them.  You see I was really really angry with a lot of people, members of my community, authority figures, friends and more.  I knew that if I spewed all of this into my blog that it would just breed more anger, within myself, and my community, so I let it rest.

I also had a whole lot of pain going on in my family which I wanted to share, but the pain wasn't mine alone and while I have no problem airing my own dirty laundry I didn't feel comfortable with the idea of robbing my family members of their dignity.  No matter how upset I am with them, I still love them.

All of this crap in my life gave me diarroea of the gut and constipation of the soul.  I had no creativity to give and I was too wounded in my inner being to share my pearls of wisdom... who am I kidding, there was no wisdom there!

After being urged repeatedly by doctors, chiropractors, and friends, I decided to give yoga and meditation a try.  Happily God saw me struggling and brought out the sun. (by the way if you enjoyed the long hot summer, it was all for me, so you are most welcome!) And so I stretched and I Oooammed, I silent retreated and I prayed, I swam in the ocean and let my tears mingle with the sea and now, maybe now, I feel like I have something more to give.