Silence.
Silence,
it isn’t something we are used to any more.
I am never in silence. Always there
is the radio or an audio book or music. Even
when I sleep I have and electronic white noise maker that I can’t sleep without. So for a while today I thought I’d just sit
in almost silence.. except for the refrigerator and the furnace and the two
cats fighting.. ok still no silence, but I turned off the electronics. (please
note that when finished I immediately had to turn it back on and blog about the
experience!) Before the cat fight I just
gave my full attention to my tea, the smell, the steam drifting in front of my
face as I lifted the cup. The flavour of
my breakfast. The light from the
whirling snow outside. And I thought, “ I need to do this more, just be present
and mindful” even during the cat fight I
got mindful of those two little beasties that I love so much. I never really thought about what they do all
day when we are not home. I figured the
just slept mostly.
It seems
like I have very much lost the ability to just be present in the moment. Always switching between cell phone and
facebook and TV or radio.. I did a break
from TV a couple of years ago, around the time I think when I started the blog
and now I am thinking maybe I need a break from all electronics, except I’m not
sure I can! I am currently being trained
as an addiction recovery program facilitator and I have been worried that may
be I wouldn’t be good at it because I have never struggled with addiction, but
clearly I am addicted to my cell phone and computer.. ok I am addicted to the
internet. The catch is that this program
promotes abstinence, but I need these tools to do my job. It would be like a wine taster alcoholic
trying to only taste wine at work.. I think that I would just spend a lot of my
work day binging on facebook and internet.. clearly this is something I need to
think about!
For now I guess I could work on today. Taking time today to be mindful. Enjoy the mid week storm day, do some
meditation, just be. No planning, no
wishing, no worrying about tomorrow.
